Exposition
The title of this post is very important. It may not give any hint as to the actual content of the post because it is very broad, However, I assure you that both of these A words are constant in my life. As you all should know by now, I am 18 years old. Despite that fact, a lot of people usually think I'm between ages of 12 and 14. Quite frankly, I don't see it. I think that I look perfectly fine, but everyone around me seems to believe that I am not as old as I say I am. You've got to have a really sturdy self esteem to deal with that on a daily basis. I mean, I admit that my face isn't all that adult-like, but I'd like to think that my frame is mature.
Context
Now, before I ramble on and on about appearance and how people need to shut up about me not looking 18, I'd like to share a little story about a few of my experiences.
The age of consent is 16. I'm two years above that. which means that despite my tiny looks and despite being labelled 12 or 14... once it's made known that I'm above that age, things get a bit tricky and uncomfortable.
Men are the weirdest creatures on this planet. Their minds are sex driven and they jump at every opportunity to get some.
Some mornings, I go to work for 6:00am. This means I have to get up early and wait outside for the bus at around 5:20. For several weeks I've been doing this. Then one morning, the bus driver asks me how old I am, and I let him know that I am 18 years old. He laughs and says he thought I was 14 ...... *in my opinion that is very retarded because how can a 14 year old who should be in school, be in work clothes most mornings getting the bus before 6:00.. dumb ass*
The Driver tells me his name, I give him mine, and I exit his bus. The next morning ... he proceeds to ask me if we can exchange numbers..... This is not okay. Weeks before I was too tiny, below the age of consent for sex, I enjoy silent company in the bus. Now I'm 18... though i still look the same... because I can legally have sex my bus rides aren't peaceful because he's going to ask me for my number and annoy me.
I Should be able to walk confidently and comfortably without being annoyed about how small i look or constantly questioned about my age
That's one of the many trials I have to endure on a daily basis. Quite frankly, I just wish that people would mind their own business and leave me alone. I also wish that I didn't have to validate my age all the time because.. hey It's not like I owe you any explanation. I also wish that when I did give out my age that it wouldn't result in a swarm of unwanted attention from perverted older males. The fact that I'm 18 doesn't make you any less sick, and not because other young girls enjoy the attention of older men means that I'm like the rest of them. I'm not even that interested in guys my own age much less idiots like you.